does she think she fucking owns me? what is her problem? just cause i don't come to school. jesus christ. i have my reasons. i don't think what i do or what i say about anything is her business. she doesn't run me. she doesn't need to know what i am doing with my life or where i am going and such. personally she makes me sick. i hate her. i will talk to her and such. drive with her and all. but i hate her. i see what L was talking about. and i know what she was talking about with him, but thats for another day. i think i have posted about that before. i hate things. i hate people. i hate them all. i can't deal with people right now. i can't talk to people. i feel sick, i need to vent, i need to just go out and smoke. i think i will do that right now. UGH! i wish they would all fuckin die. they are making it so hard for me right now. i'm gonna go have a cig. see ya!

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Yeah. We're not making it too well. Lost money at Kmart so we have to go back and explain what happened. I'm making NO money off my designs/art, I have no job. I would help pay for shit, but how am I gonna do that. I need to get away. I need to find some time to just get out there and deal with trying to make it in this world. I might lose my phone, my internet, my site. I don't know what to do. URGH!

I hope to get some smilies soon. It would be nice to have them. Waiting for Gaile to upload hers.

I need this mail thing to send me more emails so I can make money really fast. It would help me tremendously. Wow. Is this what it feels like to be poor? hmph I know a couple people who have it good right now and they are in a worse position than I am. Maybe I should drop out (again) and take more time to get a job and make some money. I have undone homework, I failed all my midterms and I am failing the retakes, so there is no point in doing this any longer. There really isn't. Yeah I am tkaing Kate's advice and doing what I should. No I don't take notes because studying does not help. I don't participate in class because I hate talking and standing up in front of people. It's not something that I can do. (talking to Lawrence is throwning off my train of thought) I don't know. There has to be something. I need money. We need it. We need to eat. We need a lot of things. Gas. Housing. Bunches of shit.

I am thinking of selling some movies, so if anyone wants them, just email me for the price and my address. I should be getting a paypal account soon if you want to use that too. But let me dig them out and write a list. CD's too.

Well, let me get going. I have to check some things. See ya.